HereLizaKnight

Ah- well, hmm. I have had quite the month! So much has happened. So much has changed.

I've decided to change my agenda. That old project from my previous journal is still in progress, but I have no intentions of finishing it any time soon. What I will finish soon is a few smaller project. I feel like I'm trying to climb a mountain without having climbed a hill. I want to start smaller and work my way up to full blown books. I'm going to start writing a few novella's and short stories just to get myself back into the swing of things.

Also, in lighter news, I went crazy, but now....I couldn't be more sane. I feel like a weight has been lifted, and I thank God for that profusely. But, I'm not into talking about my personal life that much. (So much dullness!)

So I have a few ideas for novellas:
These aren't the actual names, just the general idea of the story itself. LOL

"The adventure tragedy story"
"The trashy sex story"
"The fanfiction" -.- I'm not even sure I'll write this one.
"The fact based story about my personal craziness" (I'm writing this one, one way or another)

And a whole slew of old short stories.....

Hmmmm....

I could do all of these ideas, but I think I'll focus on one first.

Well, I've recently been disillusioned in a very serious way. It's as though the only thing that can make my dreams come true is luck and other people, and if there are two things that I have a horrible histroy with its good luck and other people. Good luck just never comes, and other people let me down. Seriously....suckage level...maxium.

So I'm doing a little test. A much less extensive peice of work than what I was orginally planning, but hopefully an equally good one. This book will be a test. If its well recieved, than I have a chance, if not, than that's probably the end of it. I'm too old for this bunk...dreaming is for sleepers and I have to wake up. Life is horrible, and there are some dreams that can't come true no matter how long your work for them. That's the end of it. If that's the way it ends up though, than...well...that will suck, but I'll...manage??? but if it works out differently, than I might just be able to make this thing work. ~,~
Yeah...so....yeah...

Let's see where this goes.


I've decided not to update this journal until said project is complete. Not that anyone is reading this journal. LOL
This is more so for me than for anyone else. ^_^ Anyway- let's see if I can do it? Yeah?

Chances: 0.0001%
Those are good odds.
That was sarcasm.


If there is a spelling error in here...deal. I honestly couldn't care less.

I'm still taking a brief break in terms of posting work here.
This journal will explain:fav.me/d57y0kt
(I'm fully aware I'm talking to myself but I must be thorough at all times!)

Anyway A MAJOR EVENT HAS JUST OCCORED!

Yes... I've had a bit of a break through. Which is detremental in a lot of ways, but benifitical in more of them!

You see in the past I would always work on the things that where not as important to me. I would save the important jobs for later, when I had more time, effort, focus, and inspiration. However, sadly, this resulted in a lack of passion in half of all the things I created, which resulted in either 'less than standard' work, or regretably, abandoned projects!

But...today, I'm taking a risk. I've had a story in the back of my mind and the front of my heart for nearly a year now, though I planed on leaving it incomplete until I had obtained the 'skill' and 'reputation' of a person who could create such a story with any degree of crediabilty!

Well BUNK THAT MESS!

I love the story...so I shall write it. If I fail, than so be it! Failure becomes me! If I succed, which is unlikely, than so be it, success is LONG overdue!

I must go with my heart! Now if I had the ability, I have a story that has been in the front of my mind and the front of my heart for 3 years now...but of course that tail requires visuals of which I am not prepared to create! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

So- my point is: I'm starting over that book project! I am again at teer 1!
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Current progess is:

Planning Stage:

Theme~ 67% I know everything I want to say in terms of theme, I'm still working out HOW I'm going to say it. ~,~....but you know I'm working on that. Also there are lots of things I want to say as for the 'truth' of the matter, and as for my 'opinion' on the matter...so pulling those things apart and making them evidently different...has become difficult. Though pleasent.

Plot~ 15% Still at 15 percent...I know...so pitiful right? Well not really....this is what I call...I theme story, the theme is more central then the plot, though in execution the plot will be first and the theme will be optional, in planning the theme must come first. SOOOOO....plot is for the most part...coming along slowly.

Goals~ 89% I've expanded and condensed a lot of my goals...its coming along really wonderfully, but when you reach for the stars you often find there are ones higher than the ones you're close to. So I'm still muddling with that...but so far I'm satisfied. And if you knew me...you'd know that satisfaction is a rarity for me.

Overall~ 0% I pretty much got nothin'.

(I just wanted to say this...I've got like...100 peices of paper littered with all this information front and back...so it may not seem like much...but I'm doing alot! no! Really I am!)

Writing Stage:

LOL- yeah right.


Let's see how long it takes us!

EDIT: I deleted a deviation...I thought about it...and realized that deviantart beats to a different drum than what that story has to offer. I'm not ignorant. I know what's socially accepted and rejected, modern and archaic. I just...prefer the latter....which is unfortunate.

Edit: For about an hour...I lived the good life. Glitches make things...so wonderful sometimes! Too bad it all got taken away! (1 day premium membership glitch. >.< Awesome.)
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Although I have done little with this actuall account, the act of being on deviant art has inspired me, since my memebership, to write 2 stories of acceptable quality. This is momentous for me, seeing I had not written a thing in a year or so, and my last attempts at writing on a regular basis where indeed, seldom, occuring only 3 times a year or less. (Not to say I hadn't create thousands of stories in that time- I merely hadn't written them donw. Haha.)

To say the least, I have been, stagnant in life for the better part...of...my existance and I wish to no longer look back and see steps untaken, so I've decided to begin yet another ambitioous project that I refuse to allow to fail.

I'm writting a book.

Ah yes, the numberous times since the age of 7 that I've actually stated those words. Hilarous really, but this time I'm serious. I have 'written' a book before, some pitiful novella sized attrocity that was completed in the better half of summer, souly out of will and grit instead of...actually passion. I will never make this mistake again, though I have created the formula for greatness in novels and stories, I find that his formula cannot be used at the present time. Why? Simple. I have found that I have forced myself to accomplish tasks as of late, which is admirable but it is the oposite of 'artisitc'. Without the element of passion all work falls short of glory, even though I might use this formula for successful theme and message, without a passion behind it, the work will never provade in my heart, despite perhaps provading in the artistic realm, which leaves me empty thus defeating the purpose of writing in the first place.

SO- this book, despite all other previous presuits of perfection in the better part of the last...decade-, will be a work of passion and possible frivioulousness, though doubtably! I do have a wonderous theme enlightened by my most wonderous passions at this time, which has aided me in the constuction of a faboulous story worthy of time and construction.

However my involvement with this new production will likely consume the next 3-6 months of my spare time, if not longer. (However I tend to be pleased with a product upon the first construction- IF I plan thoroughly enough. ^_^ So the intial writting will likely be the last, thus I will not need to squander years upon reworking and reediting this peice.)

Seeing as that much of my time shall be rather dedicated I expect this account to dwindle as a result, though I do love my username, which was why I promtly created this account as means of securing it, so all is not lost. Upon the completion of the book I will begin th stage of adversting- which will incure my usage of this account again! Excited? Yes- I am- though I doubt it will see print for the next 2 years or so- and I am not so aragont as to assume its instant acceptance- though I did have my previous book accepted ( I simply never followed through upon realizing how unworth of print that anathemal garbage really was. LOL)

So-in short- I'm on a break! Not that I have more than 1 watcher- I do in the future expect more! But that is all in time.Ta-tah for now! See you soon!

I'm aware this is riddeled with spelling mistakes- I do not spell check- I am not a grammar nazi...I don't give a crap. ^_^ LOL


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Update: Current Progess
Planning stage: Minimal completion! LOL (This story is so freaking theme heavy is its killing me! -.-) But I'll get there.

As always, I'd love a critique, but I'm not much of one to tolerate poorly done critiques. I've had just one too many in my life time.(Thus the inspiration for this journal. ) If you'd like to do a critique for me or for anyone please do so knowing what a proper critique is (to me at least). A proper critique is not your opinion, or your advice. A proper critique is simply an unbiased review of the qualities of the story itself. If I want advice I'd ask for it, if I want a critique, I'd ask for that. These words aren't even remotely related, (at least not in my dictionary.) And thus asking for a critique shouldn't open the door to random suggestions for change. In addition to that, if you start off by saying you're writing a critique (in the comments, since I probably don't have the critique button up), do so without adding your opinion to it.

Here's an example:
Good: The dialog was childlike and simplistic.
Bad: The dialog was cute! But you could do with a few more complex terms.

Words like cute adds a 'quality' of opinion, whereas childlike and simplistic express a natural statement of what the dialog was actually like, an observation, without adding 'what you thought about it'. And any kind of suggestion for change sadly is 'advice'. Advice is offensive if not requested (to me anyway.) Talking about "what you saw', compared to "what you thought' makes for a better critique.

It's not always possible to tell if an effect is intentional or unintentional, thus suggesting it be changed or removed is rude and essentially boils down to the critic's negative opinion of the effect, instead of the effect being negative in nature. Thus an 'unbiased observation' is the only kind of critique I find good. Put simply, observe what you read. Don't give advice or opinions. (Your more than welcome to do that- just note under the name of 'critique'.) It's just that simple. (If someone asks for advice than give it, but only if they ask for advice. Otherwise...its a no-no. In my opinion anyway.)

By reading an observation I can personally determine which effects I succeeded in creating (because they were observed), which effects were not noticed (and thus need more emphasis), and which effects (based on my judgment of your observation) I need to work on. This is the ONLY useful type of critique(to me!) ^_^. I will always thank critics, even if they make bad critiques, but only to make them feel good, a formality of sorts. Genuine helpfulness recieves geniune thanks. I remember all my critics, so try to leave a good memory. ^_^

If you are reading this line- that means you are really thorough and complete person, for giving my thoughts the time of day. I thank you for that, truly. Its very kind of you.